I trace the lines
One more time.
And again and again
I review the details.
They are all there;
No minutia missing.
Memories that keep me up
Etched into grey granite.
Not afraid of the future,
But afraid of repeating the past,
I store them safely, securely,
Where they can govern future actions.
Sometimes I wish I etched them
On an Etch-a-Sketch.
I’d repeat some mistakes,
But the granite gets heavy.
A year or more
Peppered with granite memories
Will weigh me down;
A millstone around my neck.
Weighed down by granite
For a year or more
Will bring me to
Depressed.
Head hit pillow
Two hours ago.
Sleep deprivation
Should have won by now.
It’s nearly four o’clock,
The lines still etch.
Can I just throw away this granite,
Or trade it for an Etch-a-Sketch?
© 2015 H.K. Longmore